So I Invited Her Over for Tea

 

Poetry By: Ariel Dresser

FEAR had ruled a long time here; 

  Had been a Hell Of Bondage & Chains

Fear had kept me dim Dear, 

  It kept me tiny and minute in frame

Fear had shielded the Truth when it rang, 

  and would overcome in Sabatouge and tears

Fear, bled me at my gut, 

   She seeped my power in years. 

Fear told me what I am not, 

  and it roped me down, anchor and slang

Fear told me what I could not have 

  While it stole my worthiness away

Fear painted a face not mine, 

  And told me I had to adorn it. 

Fear took all the love away, 

  Before I had even worn it. 

Fear smeared in me 

  The muddiest black, 

 As it gave me something to walk through 

Fear took away any belief in myself, 

  At the moments I needed most to get through 

Fear caused in me addiction, 

  Seeking Solace Without, 'stead of Within. 

Fear took everything I ever Loved 

  While maliciously highlighting my Sin. 

Fear was the Antithesis of Love 

  Yet Holy in it's Yang and it's Yin 

Fear warped our mirrors, 

  Reverberating the warp within. 

Upon Shattering it so, 

  My ripples reveal 

The purpose of its existence as Kin. 

What I had resisted so long, 

  I had only invited in. 

Now we Sit, Her and I, 

  and relish over Tea and Retreat. 

Now I let her tell her stories so 

  as I lean forward in my seat. 

And with eyes wide open, and a generous heart, 

I let Fear vent to me

 And now I feel as though we are friends, 

And a friend I can retreat with, 

        to tea.